I am a great non blogger. I'd love to become a great blogger. We'll see. I've been thinking about maybe, possibly, probably not...but maybe making this blog my check in. I need motivation, I need support(even if no one reads it), and I need somewhere to vent, whine, and talk so to speak.
I'm in a rut. I'm embarrassed to begin this journey. I'm very judgmental of myself. Burro says it all the time "if someone is pointing out something bad about themselves you have to jump in and add something about you". I'm a negative Nelly. I'm lazy. I'm not the best house keeper. My floors get mopped (yes by hand) only once a month...maybe 2x. I have baskets of clean clothes, mostly folded but just not put away. I have boxes piled chest high in our spare bedroom, I have boxes still unpacked in our bedroom from moving in back in July. Our bed gets made 1 or 2 days a week. My counters almost always have something on them, be it a dish, a wrapper, empty milk jug...or if you ask me right now all three. My curtains are crooked, shoes aren't lined up, and my hair is an unwashed mess.
I need an outlet to get through these things. I need ideas, motivation, help!
Since having LS I have let myself go. I lost all the weight, a whopping 13lbs and I've gained it back. I haven't slept well in 8.5 months. How is that you may ask? LS is only 7 months old. The last month of pregnancy is hell. So that's how!
I'm a wreck. I'm tired, worn out, and really feel like a pathetic excuse for a Mom, wife, friend, daughter, sister, and neighbor.
Maybe I need to seek God, maybe I need to start writing more, letting feelings out in a healthy way. I don't know. I don't know why I tipped this all out. I felt compelled I suppose. Maybe a great force said "BLOG". I don't know. We'll see when the next post is...
